the out set I am extremely sorry for the delay in writing
you. It is simply unpardonable. I do not wish to cite
reasons. There was absolutely none. In fact I could not
really find the right mood to communicate, though, off
course there were sessions of communication with you long
hours of silent monologue. But that is perhaps no
compensation for the one who is on the other side of
However, I beg you pardon.
Your small and delicate card with a few
representative couplets on the front page was a treat to
watch. I still watch it and praise it. Your emotional
impression about my book really flattered me for days (one
reason of delving deep into lethargy). I am just a simple
scribble. Camus had been my first love so somehow; I paid my
homage to the great soul!
I am touched to think that u r so close to
me. I wish I could meet you in my teens when I was like a
tornado. I wish to relive those days, once again, with you.
Javed knows it full well, that; in diamonds (a local hotel
of Muslim intelligentsia, now so-called intelligentsia) I
brought waves of fear among my contemporaries.
Now I am a sane person with absolutely
proper estimation of my own self. I am an ordinary mortal. I
write because this is one area where I can express myself.
Good or bad, I live it to the people.
You are among those who have some
inborn talents. I am self-made. Hence I consider myself an
intruder into the world of Urdu literature.
I do not know if ever I will make it to
Canada but there is 99% chance for me to at least once in my
life –time visit U.S.A. there stays a man whom I consider a
saint-a heaven sent persona for me. To tell you in a
nutshell, I do not allow any single day to pass without
memorizing him. He is Peter- my friend, my brother. Pray
that I may keep my promise to meet him in his own place.
In near future there is no chance at
all to undertake a luxurious trip. Till then we must
communicate through this best art of letter- writing. I hope
Here, it is not easy to create
literature. Drudgery, day in and day out does not allow one
to indulge frequently in too the luxury of creation. But you
or the best of the people write so much.
Sohail, one thing I should say you
clearly, your creative energy is abundant and you use it
intelligently. Hence prepare yourself for some greater work.
What about this Urdu Canada! I sent a
book to shaheen. He did not write me whether he has received
it. I wrote him for a review. Well I don’t know. Leave it to
the fate of book.
Soon I will write you even if you do
not write me. I must pay the penalty.